I need to post this somewhere and hope it gets to the right people .
I painfully and emotionaly write this letter of explanation and likely farewell .
I will not get into boring details . But this stems from longtime injuries to my rotator cuffs .
My right one has been bad for years . My left one just recently caught up with it With its complete tear in September .
i have had useless physical therapy . And surgery prolonging cortisone treatments .
I worked as much as i could until January 19th . I could not move my arms another day .
Things had already found me in the red at that point . I had already initiated . workman's comp claim and some kind of Social Security claim . which will take every bit of the 6 months or more . To get denied .
So Jan 19th was my last working day I had already been working for months against my doctors wishes . I had bills to pay . Now i can't physically work . And Doc has ordered that .
I have my left arm surgery on February 16 at 2:00 PM . 3 months of rehabilitation . And i can hopefully get my right arm surgery as soon as possible .
At our age the shoulders , rotator cuffs can not heal , they continue to detiorate . causing scar tissue , calcium , abnormal shaping of the bone , atrophe , soft tissue .
Losing the use of the arm and range of motion until you can longer use them .
So the repairs are crucial . And serious rehabilitation to regain strength , range of motion , to as much as possible . So I can continue to work for 7 more years . Retire . And live my later years with the use of my arms .
That is my plan .
So back to January 19th . Can no longer work . Am already broke . Have lots of things to take care of .
IRL is defeating me . it is so tragic . I am now being reminded of what a cold , cruel world it is that we live in .
That WGT and VOTSCC are too much . I can no longer do this .
January 19th was my last day here .
This is February 1st . in 4 days on the 5th . My wife and i will be evicted . For failure to pay rent . I am $ 1100.00 behind . No money and no way to convince anyone to wait until a benefit kicks in .
This is so unbelieveable to us . I can't even pack my belongings because of my arms .
My wife has some serious health issues . Particularly allergy and immune sytem vulnerabilities . and cannot take too much exposure .
So before i am to the point where i may not even be around a computer . I already know I will not be returning here .
I never would have bet i would ever be saying that . Ever .
I just want to say good bye to the many many of you that have made these last 5 years for me . One of the GR8est experiences I will ever have in my life .
The positive impact this has had on me is immeasureable . The hundreds and literally thousands of WGTers I have encountered has been a pleasure .
I wish you all well .
May the SUN always be with you
this above is just the tip of the icebeg . from the frustrations of not being able to connect with my CC to arrange for a transfer of ownership , or even a temporary one . Which I desparately tried to do . i have to walk away not living up to my obligations .
Which is what it is . and will just have to be . because it is nothing compared to what i am facing daily . IRL . Which will now get my full attention .