BogeyOne:
Someone please tell me why.
The answer to your question lies deep within you . If you believe , I mean truly believe and are willing to look inside yourself . Then you will find the answer to the why . Its starts with you understanding that you can be whatever it is that you wish to be .Then you have to accept the challenge with all of your heart .
Dig down deep and accept the pain the agony and the frustration . Knowing that in the end it will be worth it all . Because you gave everything that you had and even more , just to accomplish your dream . Dont quit not now . Not when everything you always wanted is just within your reach .
You can do this . So go do it . Dont ask yourself " why " . Ask yourself why not . When you do then you will find the answer .You will find the answer to why and also why not . :-) Play well and have fun